What I Did Wrong

Weir, John

Fordham University Press（2022/05発売）

• 製本 Paperback:紙装版/ペーパーバック版／ページ数 240 p.
• 言語 ENG
• 商品コード 9780823299454
• DDC分類 813.6

Full Description

Set in a rapidly gentrifying New York City determined to move beyond the decimation of a generation a decade earlier, What I Did Wrong is a day in the life of Tom, a forty-two-year-old English professor, haunted by the death of his best friend, Zack, who died theatrically and calamitously of AIDS. Tom himself slouches gingerly and precariously into middle age questioning every certainty he had about himself as a gay man while negotiating the field of his college classes, populated as they are with guys whose cocky bravado can't quite compensate for their own confused masculinity. Tom tries to balance his awkwardly developing friendships with them. In the process, he begins to find common ground with these proud young men and, surprisingly, a way to claim his own place in the world, and in history.
A powerfully moving—and often disarmingly funny—book about loss, character, and sexuality in the wake of AIDS, What I Did Wrong is a survivor's tale in an age when all certainties have lost their logic and focus. It is a romance that embraces its objects from the traumas of toxic masculinity to the aftermath of catastrophic loss amidst the enduring allure of New York City in all its manic and heartbreaking grandeur.

Contents

Part One: Gender Trouble 1
Texas is the Reason 3
Deadguy 25
Youthanasia 45
Songs for Swinging Lovers 63
Where Do You See Yourself? 79
Already Gone 103
Part Two: Open Secrets 123
Sick Fuck 125
They Live by Night 149
How To Disappear Completely 167
Kevin Spacey Has a Secret 193
The Destiny of Me 211
Abgesturzt 229