Full Description
There Is No Wall is ultrarunner Allie Bailey's brutally honest and sometimes shocking account of alcoholism, depression and severe mental breakdowns which almost cost her her life.
Told with disarming vulnerability, heartbreaking depth of feeling and dark humour, this isn't a story about how running saved her - she was already running and at the height of her struggles sometimes even winning 100-mile-plus races. But somewhere between the darkest excesses of the music industry and the simple beauty of the ultrarunning scene, Allie found space to listen, learn and put into practice techniques that would go on to save her life and change it for the better.
There Is No Wall is a story about how doing something you love can lead you to achieve things you never thought possible. Running won't save you, but it might buy you the time to save yourself.
Contents
Introduction: The stories we believe are the ones we tell ourselves the most
PART ONE: THE AWAKENINGS
Blog One: A prologue to madness (2017)
I: How the fuck did this happen?
II: You are so lucky
III: Running won't save you
PART TWO: THE RECKONINGS
Blog Two: Down and out in Paris (and London) (2017)
I: Well, that escalated quickly
II: Love is a four-letter word
III: There is a rock bottom
PART THREE: THE REALISINGS
Blog three: I wanted to be invisible. At my lowest I just wanted to be dead (2021)
I. Take the pieces and build them skywards
II. Mind the gap, please.
III. Dear Reader (protect your magic)
EPILOGUE
Blog Four: Until you're broken, you don't know what you're made of. Taking the ride of my life on the Wild Horse 200 (2023)
