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"There are fevers you still wish to forget," writes Eduardo MartÍnez-Leyva, but how fortunate for the rest of us that he remembers. These tenderly crafted autobiographical poems pierce through to the heart of pain, love, loss, and the ongoing search for salvation—or at least a salve. Housed in the lived experiences of a queer Latinx person born and raised in the border town of El Paso, Cowboy Park seamlessly blends themes of masculinity, identity, and the immigrant experience, offering a new perspective on the iconic image of the cowboy and a deeper understanding of the complexities of human experience.
The detainment and deportation of MartÍnez-Leyva's brother grounds this exquisite collection in the all-too-common familial tragedy of political violence and discrimination. MartÍnez-Leyva honors the people, language, culture, and traditions that shaped him, revealing the indignations, large and small, experienced by a community that is too often misrepresented and maligned. "My voice was the only thing keeping us warm," he writes, and the warmth from this striking debut collection is beautiful to behold.
"In Spanish, the act of coring an apple
is called 'descorazonar,' to dishearten.
All these years, I've kept my hands away
from everyone's heart, including my own.
I'd always love the things that bruised so easily."
—Excerpt from "Scenes from the Bone Orchard"
Contents
I.
Learning the Language
Colorete
ESL Lesson
The Boy inside the Gun
I Never Wanted to Speak
Grief Workshop
Lone Star
Portrait of My Mother in Her Youth
Son of a Gun
Tormenta
Composite Sketch
I Was Only a Boy
Portrait of Aging Father
With Jesus in Our Mouths
Portrait of My Mother Studying for Her Citizenship Exam
Angelo
Sin Documentos
Don't Look Back, Little Halo
Still Life with Post-traumatic Stress Disorder
Portrait of Angelo with his Possessions
Confirmation
Almost-Grief
II.
Scenes from the Bone Orchard
Portrait of a Boy on the Other Side of a Glory Hole
Small Vices
Cowboy Park
Vaquero
Show Pony
And God Punished Him for Being Disobedient
God May Squeeze but Won't Strangle You
Torero
Mud Song
Estrellita
God Made Dirt, and Dirt Don't Hurt
Tease
Adultery
God Gave You Hands, So Use Them
Horseshoe
Now You're Talking
Ode to a Leather Harness
Bracero with a Tattoo of the Virgin Mother
Negation Litany for a Fallen God
There is Little Left to Say About Harm
Nostalgia Cruising
III.
When I Spoke the Language of Donkeys
After the Shooting, You Have a Panic Attack In the Supermarket
Portrait of an Absent Brother
Mordida
What's Above Us Is Either Dead or Still Dying
Angelo Is Probably Dead
A Protagonist Once Said
Letters from a Younger Brother, Mourning
Recuperado
Portrait of Speaker inside a Burning House
Broomtail Ballad
The Simple Hour
Cowboy Park
Mustang
Purgatory
Portrait of the Speaker Riding a Greyhound Bus
Notes
Acknowledgments
